I have to admit...

While I haven't been writing in here for about a week, I must admit as to why.

I am in pain. Serious emotional pain over you, Anti-Zero. You say it was between us two, why wouldn't the fates let it be me? After our past, how perfect it seems to be. How much we tend to fall into those same patterns. And how happy we seem to keep each other. All I can say is this next week will be a serious test of my emotional strength, and I shall hope the New Year does not bring about new changes.

People

Will never cease to amaze me. How many things they try to keep behind backs, or simply keep hidden that should be truly up front things. Or straight up lies. I will never understand it.

I will never understand...

How I was -so- loud and it was -so- annoying for so many years, and you all hated me for it, but this one is drugged off her ass, obnoxious, loud, blatantly ignores simple requests to be quiet for a few minutes, thinks its her right to take the computer we are working on and -no one- says -anything- to her. Dear gods, please don't have this one around as a test of my patience, there is little of that left, and I will say something to her. Likely soon. Looks like my weekend escape is getting smaller isn't it then?

What's this?

Could this be? Another boy with interest... too good to be true. While I am quite convinced Peter is just around to try for pants time, and Wolf is still deciding, with other girls to occupy him until he will admit to what he wants, this Angel came out of nowhere. Slowly I walk, wondering always who will nip me next as Sandy did.

Oh the weekend...

Well, it made me face a fear or two at least. Good to know I am not the first you have done that to Sandy. Actually, seems a pattern you have had for years. Though, is nice to see it won't last between you two. And as for you dear Fire, I tread lightly, especially when the only warning I get is to be careful. And lastly, the Wolf, I enjoy how things are falling. Let us hope it keeps the way it has been.

And I wonder...

I can't help it. I wonder if Peter, I shall name you, will turn out like the last did. I do hope not, thus far I N quite enjoying this, and I do hope it continues and does so well.

Was wondering how long that would take...

I will admit, I have spent the last two days checking my phone to see your name pop up. Facebook works well though too. And dearie, "you remind me of bella" is one of the more amusing things you could throw in there. :) You make me smile. I like this idea.

What a wonderful weekend

So go figure, the day my ex comes to the club with me, I gain the attention of the boy I spent a few weeks ago eyeing. Oh well, still made for an interesting night, phone number included. :) Meanwhile, my ex and I spent a day and a half of acting like nothing happened. Though, there is that little problem of him still being hung up on his most recent ex, and how he can't seem to stop talking about her. That would be an issue that needs changing, stat.

Where to begin?

Where to begin? Well, firstly, today was amazingly normal. Oh, wait, maybe not. Right, that was just the time while I slept. Well, even calling tossing and turning like I do every night sleep is a long-shot, but oh well. But then again, being my friends consider the day not from midnight to midnight, but from sleep to sleep, I suppose my life is either one long day, or that tossing is sleep. And in that sense, today was quite normal, in midnight to midnight, not as much. But I digress.

I suppose a place to start would be to introduce you to the characters in my life. For the time being, and because I lack renaming skills (necessary unless I plan to blow the world of my friends out of the water, as per always, being I am the closed book they all write in with invisible ink), we will stick with myself and the main few, shall we?

I'm Kit, and I am the reason soap operas will be taken off the air next year. It is because they will be replacing them with the story of my life. Everything that has happened over the last few months, and what I am sure is likely to come.

Ok, I lied. Names need to be thought through better than I can at this point in the night. Or morning. In either case, it seems to be time for sleeping, or that attempting it thing. I will promise names to come, and short biographies; nothing too in-depth though, it will unfold as my story is told.

Blessed Be.

Because normal doesn't exist.

Well, seeing how normal doesn't exist in my life, I suppose I will work it to my advantage, and your amusement. So, for now I will simply start from today. I can check one off my list. Amusing. One I swore would never be crossed off. Oh well, times are changing I suppose; now it's just a matter of where they may lead.