When I can walk into your house and wake you up at 5:30 in the morning, and all you do is open your arms and let me cry, I fall even harder.

I have to admit...

While I haven't been writing in here for about a week, I must admit as to why.

I am in pain. Serious emotional pain over you, Anti-Zero. You say it was between us two, why wouldn't the fates let it be me? After our past, how perfect it seems to be. How much we tend to fall into those same patterns. And how happy we seem to keep each other. All I can say is this next week will be a serious test of my emotional strength, and I shall hope the New Year does not bring about new changes.

People

Will never cease to amaze me. How many things they try to keep behind backs, or simply keep hidden that should be truly up front things. Or straight up lies. I will never understand it.

I will never understand...

How I was -so- loud and it was -so- annoying for so many years, and you all hated me for it, but this one is drugged off her ass, obnoxious, loud, blatantly ignores simple requests to be quiet for a few minutes, thinks its her right to take the computer we are working on and -no one- says -anything- to her. Dear gods, please don't have this one around as a test of my patience, there is little of that left, and I will say something to her. Likely soon. Looks like my weekend escape is getting smaller isn't it then?

What's this?

Could this be? Another boy with interest... too good to be true. While I am quite convinced Peter is just around to try for pants time, and Wolf is still deciding, with other girls to occupy him until he will admit to what he wants, this Angel came out of nowhere. Slowly I walk, wondering always who will nip me next as Sandy did.

Oh the weekend...

Well, it made me face a fear or two at least. Good to know I am not the first you have done that to Sandy. Actually, seems a pattern you have had for years. Though, is nice to see it won't last between you two. And as for you dear Fire, I tread lightly, especially when the only warning I get is to be careful. And lastly, the Wolf, I enjoy how things are falling. Let us hope it keeps the way it has been.

And I wonder...

I can't help it. I wonder if Peter, I shall name you, will turn out like the last did. I do hope not, thus far I N quite enjoying this, and I do hope it continues and does so well.